Dear 2011,
I will admit it. I am thankful you have come to a close. I am happy to see you go and I am excited to see what 2012 will bring. Please understand that I am not harboring bad feelings toward you as you walk out the door, I have let those go. We have had a rocky relationship and I feel it best if we both admit it is better if we goour separate ways.
This year has been one of the most difficult of my adult life. Some may argue that this might be my first year as an adult (I often feel that way). As a result of these struggles you shoved me headlong into adulthood and for that I do need to thank you.
This year I have faced the loss of all three of my remaining Grandparents and the family hurt that accompanied the loss. I am grateful they were part of my life and thankful that their journeys into death were painless. If only the survivors pain could be cured with the embraces and thoughts that were shared. Even now, months later I still find myself in tears at random moments. You also brought four major medical scares to four people I love so very much. You rendered me powerless to help in every situation but rendered mepowerful in the support and love I could share through recovery. This year you also brought us real estate headaches and heartaches. You took money out of our pockets like it was going out of style. You tempted us with houses we loved only to take them away. You tempted us with buyers after we gave you countless hours of cleaning, staging and dealing with real estate agents. The house we were trying to sell keep having leaks. You gave us jobs that made us work incredibly hard – that kept us away from home longer than we both had wanted.
2011, you kinda sucked. But you could have been a heck of a lot worse.
At the end of this year you did start to behave better. My parents were able to move from New York to Iowa and move into a home they love just three and a half miles from our home. Our new home. You gave Shane and I a new home that we adore. We were so thankful that a buyer came through for the town home in a short five months (despite what a debacle that was) and to be able to celebrate Christmas in our new home was truly the perfect gift for the season. You have brought me closer to great people. As for those four medical scares? Thank you for not taking those lives too and for helping me to remember how precious life is. You gave me the gift of confidence to take charge and completely rock the first year of my job. You forever changed my life when I learned I will become an aunt next year. For all of this and all the little things, thank you.
As I sit here on the last day of 2011 reflecting on all that crap you sent my way just know, dear 2011, that I forgive you. I am left with a heart that is full of love and thoughts of how lucky I really am. Even though you really did your best to hurt me I am declaring this one a win for me. I am coming out of this relationship a better and stronger person. I know more about whom I am and what I can handle. I am closer to my family and friends than ever before. Perhaps the greatest gift you’ve given me is a well taught lesson in how to stay positive while taking it one day at a time.
As you leave please let 2012 know that I am strong and I will not be taken down.
Even though I forgive you just remember who won. Me.
Sincerely & with Love,
essjay
PS. I look forward to more time to post in this space during 2012!
This year I have faced the loss of all three of my remaining Grandparents and the family hurt that accompanied the loss. I am grateful they were part of my life and thankful that their journeys into death were painless. If only the survivors pain could be cured with the embraces and thoughts that were shared. Even now, months later I still find myself in tears at random moments. You also brought four major medical scares to four people I love so very much. You rendered me powerless to help in every situation but rendered mepowerful in the support and love I could share through recovery. This year you also brought us real estate headaches and heartaches. You took money out of our pockets like it was going out of style. You tempted us with houses we loved only to take them away. You tempted us with buyers after we gave you countless hours of cleaning, staging and dealing with real estate agents. The house we were trying to sell keep having leaks. You gave us jobs that made us work incredibly hard – that kept us away from home longer than we both had wanted.
2011, you kinda sucked. But you could have been a heck of a lot worse.
At the end of this year you did start to behave better. My parents were able to move from New York to Iowa and move into a home they love just three and a half miles from our home. Our new home. You gave Shane and I a new home that we adore. We were so thankful that a buyer came through for the town home in a short five months (despite what a debacle that was) and to be able to celebrate Christmas in our new home was truly the perfect gift for the season. You have brought me closer to great people. As for those four medical scares? Thank you for not taking those lives too and for helping me to remember how precious life is. You gave me the gift of confidence to take charge and completely rock the first year of my job. You forever changed my life when I learned I will become an aunt next year. For all of this and all the little things, thank you.
As I sit here on the last day of 2011 reflecting on all that crap you sent my way just know, dear 2011, that I forgive you. I am left with a heart that is full of love and thoughts of how lucky I really am. Even though you really did your best to hurt me I am declaring this one a win for me. I am coming out of this relationship a better and stronger person. I know more about whom I am and what I can handle. I am closer to my family and friends than ever before. Perhaps the greatest gift you’ve given me is a well taught lesson in how to stay positive while taking it one day at a time.
As you leave please let 2012 know that I am strong and I will not be taken down.
Even though I forgive you just remember who won. Me.
Sincerely & with Love,
essjay
PS. I look forward to more time to post in this space during 2012!
7 comments:
I love this. Happiest of New Years to you and Shane, Sara!
I've sure missed you. Sorry 2011 had its downs (VERY sorry to hear about your grandparents -- I can't imagine how hard it must've been to lose three of them this year alone), but I think this letter is good closure. Goodbye, 2011; it wasn't the best for me, either. Here's to a MUCH better 2012!
Good bye 2011! 2012 is full of promise!
So sorry to hear about your losses. :( I've been there and I know how much it hurts. I'm glad that you guys had joy this year as well. Hope I get to see more of you this year. Here's to a better 2012!
aww Sweetpea! You have had a rough year--but you did come out on top! I'm so glad your parents are near your NEW home! I've had loss this year as well--and I'm hoping 2012 won't bring anymore.
This letter had me sitting here with a smile and tears in my eyes. I'm glad to see you back in here, but I'm sorry you lost grandparents this year.
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